How to infuriate your girlfriend.

So let me start with RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

FUCK, BOLLOCKS, WANKING CUNT FUCKING ASSHOLE BOLLOCKING SHEEP FUCKER PADDY.

Im sorry to all you delicate people out there but that needed to be said, not normal for me.

Please let me redirect you to, the reason for my anger:
http://jspaced.blogspot.com/
and for the record, its not because its 'expected', its ecause i love you, its because i like being around you, its because even girls like playing computer games sometimes, its because i like house, firefly, 24 and all of that, and do you think that you are the only one who likes her space, no, i like nothing better than to curl up in a ball and be on my own sometimes, with a tub of ben & jerry's a twister ice cream, some sweets from woolworths, a cadbury's fruit and nut and the erstwhile rampant rabbit.
I need alone time too, and the thing is baby, now im starting to thnk, whats the point, its not worth all this hassle, and yes its a big deal, a very big fucking deal, but i genuinely wanted it too happen. Now im thinking, ok, so he clearly doesn't want, isn;t ready, and obviously doesn't understand me, i need this, needed, i guess he's right sometimes being on your own is better.

Im lucky if i see james twice a week, and even then i get sent home, or asked to leave as he needs to be alone, so ok, its not the right time, i don't think it ever will be, i think that he's going to go away and travel and do his thing and when he gets back he's still not going to be able to take the jump, being scared is just a state of mind, hell im bloody petrified, its a leap of faith, if every leap took 2 months then we would all be falling into the abyss that i seem to be in at the moment, im so glad im on annual leave, i need it, im so knackered, shattered is more politically correct, but hopefully some alone time at my parents will help sort me out.

Tonight draws near and im supposed to be seeing james, meeting with him for dinner, i don't know where, and its not like i can contact him that easily either having dropped my phone into the bath, thats not working and i have to wait until the 19th november before i can get my phone upgraded.
So tonight, we will talk, about nothing in particlar, how are you, hows work, how is the momf in general, normal polite discussion, steering it away from the subject at hand to move in or not to move in, well after this weekend i think that james is pretty sure that he does not want this, unless i can validate why i want to do this, its so bloody regimental, im not exactly going to list bullet points as to why i think we should live together, we've had the discussion, now i vote i just leave well alone, for another year at least anyway, by which time he will be in the middle east.
But here james, here are reasons, both ways.

• Know this i love you.
• i want us to be together for a very long time,
• i want you to understand me and i you better.
• i know you are a man slob,
• im a woman, i leak,
• i don't rinse the bath out after shaving my legs.
• i cry on occasion.
• i loathe chery tweedy
• i like to ask my friends round.
• I'll make you eat vegetables.
• there will be milk in the fridge.
• but i can see you whenever i want.
• you would have your own space,
• my flat is bigger.
• im hardly ever there.
• but im pretty.
• you will one day get your threesome.
• but not with tricia helfer.
• will save money.
• sex on tap.
• but, you may hate me,
• i may hate you,
• we may break up,
• you are afraid,
• im afraid,
• life is about trial and error james.

But like i was saying, whats the point? i think that iv thought over this way to much, i just can't be bothered anymore. Fine lets just leave things the way they are, your right, if its not broken why fix it?